pregnant again!!!!!

well i found yesterday that i am pregnant again. i don't know how this happened i had my tubes tied last year in august when i had Abby. my doctor told me then that i couldn't have more babies cause there will be a 50/50 chance for me to survive. so now i have to do the hardest thing i think since my miscarriage in 2005, is i have to go have an abortion. and then i have to schedule for my tubes to be tied AGAIN!
so now i have to go to the docs today to get some test done i hope to god i don't have to have an ultra sound. Cause it didn't hit me with the miscarriage till i saw the ultra sound of the baby and it was 3 months.
what really pisses me off is my last period was on august 19th and i went to the docs on September 20th complaining of sornes of my stomach and of symptoms of being pregnant. and the doc was like no your not pregnant cause you had your tubes tied, and its just you body thinking it was when its not. i still insisted i wanted a prego test and he told me no.
and look it now im 2 months prego dumbass doctor. i fucken hate him cause this could have been done a month ago.
but i have finally quite crying for now cause that was all i was thinking about was how it was when i had lost the one in 2005. i just hope that i can stop making myself upset. it will be about a week before the procedure will be done, wish me luck.

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Grey's Anatomy drinking games

what ever alchol you chose

*Participants must select of the interns before the show starts. Whenever Bailey insults your intern during the episode, take three sips.


*Izzie becomes too emotionally attached to a patient. Drink twice if she even thinks about mentioning Denny.


*George is a whiny bitch. George is adorable and all, but the kid’s got to man up sometimes.
Come on!

*Every time a character says “shut up” (or any variation of that phrase), take a shot.


*Every time a character says “seriously” , take a shot.


or you can fallow this links rules aswell

Grey's Anatomy Drinking Game

From the creator: "The (Best if not Official) Grey’s Anatomy Drinking Game Version 1.
0 - Season One Edition"

Recommended drink: any

The rules

Rule #1.
You drink when they drink!
• Take one drink whenever a character is shown drinking any type of beverage.

(including, but not limited to: coffee, hot tea, tequila, beer, wine, chocolate milk)
• Take two drinks if a beverage is verbally referenced.

(i.e.
Mocha Latte, tequila, microbrews, triple shot espresso, single malt scotch)

Rule #2.
Visual Cues = Two Drinks
Take two drinks any time one of the following items appears on screen:

• The Space Needle
• Seattle Magazine
• The MRI machine
• Meredith’s Dartmouth T-shirt
• Derek’s steamboat surgical cap
• Meredith’s giant Bronco
• Burke’s glasses
• Hello Kitty
• Rain
• Derek’s Sidekick mobile phone.

• The over-used Port of Seattle fly over shot of the orange gantry cranes on Harbor Island
• The Catwalk (the big bridge in the main lobby of Seattle Grace)

Rule #3. Audio Cues = One drink.

Take one drink when a character is called by a nickname.

(i.e. McDreamy, The Nazi, 007, Dr. Model, Dr.
Evil Spawn, Cricket, Shep…the only exclusion is Izzy)
Take one drink when you hear the following sound effects:

• Pager Beeps
• The Elevator *Bing*
• George’s Shoe Squeeks

Take one drink when you hear the following words or phrases in character dialogue:

• Seriously!
• Freaking
• Rule(s)
• Wrestle(r)
• Move
• Penis
• Ovary(ies)
• Suction
• Rounds
• Ferryboat(s)
• Dude
• Boyfriend
• Roommate
• Relationship
• The Game
• The Syph or Syphilis
• Banana
• Boobs
• Code (Code anything, including ‘Code Team’ and ‘call a code’)
• Anytime George’s dialogue consists of silence and a dramatic blink
• What are you doing? (And its variations: What are you doing here? What are we doing? What do you think you’re doing?)

(Optional)
Rule #4: Actions = Chug
Chug your drink when:
• There is a conversation in a bathroom.

• Alex excersizes.

• Izzy bakes.

• The interns take bets.

• Cristina rides her motorcycle.

• Meredith is in Derek’s car.

• The interns fight over patients.


Rule #5: Icing on the Cupcake = ONLY for those of you who could seriously drink Meredith under the table. Seriously.

• Take one drink any time a character appears on screen partially nude.

• Take two drinks any time two partially nude characters appear in a scene together.


Creator: Lacy Davis

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lost memories

i had suck a great time in junior high and high school coming into my own and i met alot of great people. now that im older my memory is getting worse. i can barely remeber what i did yesterday. note i need to go to the doctor for it. sometimes things trigger what i have done in the past that i had totally forgot about. ill give you some examples, if i can remeber lol.
the other day me and my hubby were going to his dads house and i saw this hill, and a flash came to me like dejavue. it was night time and Omar had thrown himself, like he always did funny ass shit, down Karla's hill. he ended up with a gash on the back of his head. we took him to his friends house, i think his name was Chris, to pick out all the little pieces of rock out of the cut. it was so weird how it just came to me.
then a couple of weeks ago it happened again when i was riding around with Stacey and i told her about it. she was like what. it was when me and Charlene and mike dyke and his friend and Chris amador had tim(? i cant remeber his last name everyone said he was a devil worshiper.) car cause tim was going out of town. well we went on beer runs with the car and we wrote all over it with a whiteout pen, and then we piled about 7 of us in a datsun and drove around the dairies gettin high and hot boxing the car.
good times.
i remeber slap boxing with stiemen, and all the guys i loved hanging out with them. like right now i just got a flash of papa bear and Ralph and some other guy i can see him but i cant think of his name he was skinny tall and blond. in ralphy’s back yard with this old door throwing knives. papa bear was teaching me how to hold it just right.
and at my husbands friends house we have only been over there a couple of time but the first time i walked in to his garage it hit me like a wave. he had a pool table in it. instantly i was transported to ralphy’s house to the room with the pool table with the whole ceiling covered in pin ups and their guitars in the corner. and us playing darts. and i could literally walk up the ramp out of the room and across the hall to ralphs room. him sitting there putting beer and ice cubes in his bong. lol
i had so many pics from back in the day and i wish i still had them but when i got with this guy my senior year he made me cut them up cause they where all these guys. i had about 80% guy friends in high school and i couldn't hang out with them any more. plus majority of them got kicked out of high school and i never really saw them again.
i just wish i had some sort of better way of remembering the good times with something more tangible then a "come around when ever it wants to" memories.
so no matter what boy friends or girl friends say don't get rid of your memories cause those are yours just put them away

wondering "what if"

i have a friend (for reals a friend not a make believe one and i am not feeling this, but i can understand) who has been married for about 10 years and she is feeling confused about how she feels about another guy. she wants to be his friend but she is feeling a lust for him. i understand that after a long time in a relationship, your thoughts do being to wonder, what if?
Everyone who knows me knows how i feel about cheating, i despise it. but now from what she had said her friend had told her, i do understand the other side, but a real fucken big but, if you have these feeling and you are at the point where you want to act on them have the respect for your partner to separate. cause which is worse to leave each other on some what good terms to go on with your lives or cheat on them, lie and break their heart.
I had told my husband this from the beginning if he ever wants to be with someone else he needs to tell me and we can divorce it is much better then being deceived. i have been cheated on many, many times and it hurts more and more the more you care about the person.
I think it is ok for her to be having these feelings, everone has fantasies or day dreams of being with other people. she has told me that she catches her husband all the time looking else wear. Everyone knows a man doesn't just look they think about sex constantly all day long. i think i read in a magazine a while back that every 3 to 5 minutes a man thinks about sex.
but if a guy is to look at her he gets all upset, why? cause he knows what he is thinking!!! the things those guys are thinking of doing to his wife he has no control over,no clue what their fantasy is and that is what makes him made. the stupid thing is that she doesnt acknowledge those guys looking at her or encourage them and he gets mad at her. what kind of bullshit is that i would think he would like to have a hot ass wife that guys are looking at. and the fact that he gets to go home and do what ever he wants to her and they cant nane nane poop poo!
well get back to the problem at hand she says she cant be friends with this guy cause the feelings a re getting stronger for him. but she is happy with her marriage and loves her husband.
what should she do?
Leave her husband on good terms and quit wondering what if and actually do something not expected of her or stay away from this guy and stay in her marriage.
i think fate put this guy there to answer her "what if" question. and now it is up to her to chose.
i was in her position about 10 years ago and i had to make the same sort of decision the " what if" was hovering over me like a dark cloud and i finally made a decision, i left someone and it was hard cause i had to stay there with him afterward cause i had no place else to go. it was the hardest 29 and half hours of my younger life. but it was what had to be done. and i am as happy as i have ever been.
i think no one should settle life is too short to settle. im so fucken happy i never settled a couple of times cause i would never had found my hubby. there are alot of "what if's" in my life and im glad that i chose the hard ones cause it lead me to him.
i dont know if this will help her or discourage her.
cause fate and karma happens for a reason, thats why i think we ended up being friends. The "what if" was hovering over her that day she emailed me for the first time and now a year later we are realy good friends, never met in person, but we talk all the time and we can tell each other anything.
so all i can say fallow your heart and dont worry all hearts heal. you do you and who cares what others think they will get over it. jump when you think it is time. there is that enough cheesy quotes for ya hehehe loves to ya girlie tommie

sex is a necessity

Me and my friend Sara have been talking about this subject before the weekend and it got me thinking. sex is a necessity in a relationship period. no couple is truly happy together if the sex ain't great. if you are not happy in the bedroom then the rest of the day is crappy or am i wrong.
i personally had alot of bad sex experiences, and i had been only with 4 men before i met my husband. i had told him of all my experiences. i think he was surprised at the fact that i was 22 and haven't had great sex.
well to fill you in on my experiences, the first guy i was ever intamit with was when i was 18 and had just graduated high school. believe me i had dated alot but never went passed 2nd based with any of them cause i said i wouldn't till i graduated. but when we finally did the deed, believe me it hurt but it wasn't enjoyable i thought that is how it was. so then after 3rd time of having sex he had took me home but he wanted to fool around some more. so he was playing (fingering me) and when we were done he had kissed me, i went inside and when i went to the bathroom i had had blood on my face. he had called to make sure everything was ok and i had told him the first thing that popped into my head was that i had started my period. but in actuality i had lost my cherry to his hand. i know it is a little graphic but i want you to picture yourself in my shoes.
so then after almost 2 years with that guy i had slept with the first guy i thought wasn't that bad and it was horrible and he made me never want to do blow jobs ever again. then the next guy i was in a real relationship and we lived together but he was bad at it too. i was trying to make it better, i went and got movies tried different positions but it was still to the point when we were done i waited for him to leave the room so i could take care of myself.
so then number three we would fool around in the car or on the floor at his dads house, how romantic. but it was bad too i was starting to think it was me and that was how sex is suposed to be.
but then my biggest crush i ever had on some one, turned out to be the beginning of true love. when me and him got together it was fantastic we tried new things and every time it gets better and better we do argue like any couple but we have the great makeup sex afterwards.
wanting to turn him, turns me on and this is what i have been searching for,. now i understand why the other relationships didn't work because we never had the sex connection maybe they did but it just wasn't there for me. this is the key to a great relationship, go to bed happy and wake up happy and the rest of the day maybe bad with arguments with your spouse or others, but when you come and you see your spouse and all you want to do to him, is ravage him then you know he is a keeper.
so if you love your spouse try new things to keep the flame a burnin
and believe me some guys think about stuff you never would just ask him or her what is a fantasy you would like me to preform for you. i had asked mine and i was hoping i didn't get myself in trouble, but his first fantasy was for me to give him a BJ while he smoked a blunt. it was so simple i was surprised it had made me laugh. but i did it all the time and it drove him nuts. and then the other day i had asked him again what is a new fantasy cause you know that once we ask thats all they think about and they are waiting for you to ask again.
and this new one was great cause he actually had to scream into the pillow cause he was moaning so loud. he had told me he wanted me, while i was giving him a BJ after he came to suck on the head of his pecker ( cause i cant stand cum but it does wipe off lol) he shook all over the place and after that we had sex for about an hour so i think i will be doing that for along time lol
so ask you partner their fantasy or you can try one of my hubbies to break the ice for yours lol have fun

emails can be used for good and naughty

well i was IMing my friend Sara yesterday and we were complaining to each other about of husbands like we all ways do LOL. i came to a decision that i was gonna write my husband an email because im a crappy writer and when i say things they dont come out right.
so here is the email i wrote him and it does have some naughty things in it but not to bad lol
i not nagging if you aren't doing something i ve been asking and asking you to do. i really wish you would take the things i ask you to do seriously. ive been asking you to pick up after yourself and i haven't seen any change it may seem like no big deal to you but every little bite helps and takes alot off my shoulders.
if you dont know what in talking about ill give you a list.
picking up after your self is the main thing throw your trash away, put you dirty clothes in the hallway, put things back where you got them and keep you stuff picked up off the desk. i know im a stay at home mom and my job is to take care of the kids and the house. but after i have been cleaning all day and you come home and tear it up what i just did its very irritating.
and yesterday i was getting irritated cause you had left to go to your friends house and once you got home you ate dinner and then plopped your ass on the couch while i was doing everything( im not mad that you went any where, just the fact that when you get home you dont do shit).
and when you leave i dont have a mess waiting for you to pick up when you get back. when i go somewhere i come home and pick up the mess everyone made clean the dishes and i really dont think that is fair, cause i dont think you would like that every time you leave and when you get back, oh ok heres a mess for ya, heres your reward, you shouldn't have went anywhere, thats how i feel.
i haven't been telling mom when im gonna go somewhere cause every time i do she asks me "HE'S gonna watch them right" it makes me feel guilty for leaving or wondering if you are gonna pay attention to them, or just yell at them. when you leave you can leave for hours on end and you don't worry about a thing when i leave i worry about everything and it makes me sad, cause i cant enjoy my time away.
and then you are so romantic now, telling me yesterday your gonna suck my dick, i would like a little forplay or romance i know i like it rough sometimes but im still a women and like some affection before we get to that point ive been trying to make myself look nice but i still dont get any affection other then you grabing my boobs really hard or you slapping my ass. a kiss on the neck would be so much better first then you can smack me on the ass.
dont get me wrong i love ya but you have been more lazy over the past couple of months. and to be honest it really turns me off with some of these things. like last night all i wanted was to sit down for a little bit and i m still cleaning up their mess and your in the room with them and i walk in and you tell me while you are laying down " change thier pampers and make her a bottle so you can lay her down, she needs to go to bed"
no what are you doing right now, hey babe can you make abby a bottle. you need to look how you are talking to me cause if you pay attention the kids are doing too.
i love you and i just needed to say this to you but you know it wouldn't come out of my mouth this way. i just want you to try and a kiss on the neck would be fantastic. love me
and if you improve on these thing then you can get more pervie emails not these kinds.
well so i sent this to him on Tuesday and he didnt get on to his email neither did he Wednesday morning . but now im shitting bricks cause i had planes yesterday to go with my friend Stacey shopping, and he still hasn't read the email. so when he came home Stacey was already here and after a few minutes we left. so we went to alot of places payless then walmart, then to go and get gas and it was around almost 6pm by the time we got to ross.
After we were there for a bit the phone had rang and it was my hubby and i missed the call so i had called him back. he was asking me where i was cause it was 6 and i told him we were still out and then he asked" so what are me and the kids gonna eat for dinner". which i told him last night if i was too long there was a pizza in the freezer for them and then he got kind of more snotty with me and so i asked him is that it, he said never mind bye. so i took it as he either read the email and wanted me home to talk about it or he didnt read the email and was just being a dick.
so i tried to not let it bother me but it was hard, cause every other second i was think that the fuck i haven't done that to him in a long time and he does that to me all the time. it makes MY TIME away horrible, and instantly puts me in a bad mood.
but this time i wasnt gonna let it happen so we kept shopping for i think 2 hours longer hehehehe. it was so much fun i need to just get out and do anything. i love Stace-age she lets me be stupid i told her that is what im here for comic relief.
so when i came home i was in a great mood and when i walked in the door the house was picked up, the dishes were ready to go into the dish washer(i didnt put up the clean ones before i left) a dnthe kids room was picked up and their beds were ready for night time and the kids where in the bath. can you say shocked!!!
and i was nothing but nice to him didn't mention the email and after i put the kids to sleep, which is his job i did it cause he did a good job for me not to clean up the house when i got home. and than afte a little bit of relaxing i got the kisses on the neck and a hole lot more hehehehe
now my husband can receive hi pervie emails again notw that i typed some sense into him!

finding friends in new places

well it's hard to believe but it has been almost 2 years since i have made an interesting friend at the time. but now she has turned out to be a really great friend, i am so happy that she had the courage to email me.
well about 2 years ago i had got on to my space because of my best friend, she had her art work up on her my space page and so i went there to see them. i like the looks of my space and i decided to create my own page and in some strange way it actually helped me remain sain threw all the shit that fallowed in Kansas. but anyways i had read her first message and she was an ex boyfriends wife. she was just curious about me cause of the relationship me and him had right before they got together. we ended up just talking back and forth comparing stories, which was actually fun.
it is a very interesting thing cause me and her are alot alike in some ways, almost like sisters, were you are alot alike but so different.
i am so happy that i met her, im not sure how happy the ex is but who cares.lol
she became almost needed when i was in Kansas cause alot of shit was going on with my sister and other family members and i was completely alone in the friend category next to my husband and kids. so then me and her started to IM each other, and we would chat when we could catch each other on there.
the reason i know we get along so great is because i am probably the only one who truly knows how my exs family are and i understand her feelings on the hole family drama thing that she is going threw. even though it was about 9-10 years ago but i remember alot that went on.
now she got me into this blog site and now i have another out let because on my space i had ablog and i spoke my feeling on my family,(hell i don't have to watch what i say)on my stingy ass trifling backstaping sister lol, and she had read it and it snow balled into this gigantic pile of shit. i wish i didn't erase it so i could remind myself how retarded she truly is.
thank you girlie you know who you are just in case you don't want your name up on here.lol
hopefully this will help me type better, and please bare with me im dyslexic and thank god for spell check. loves to all Tommie