well i found yesterday that i am pregnant again. i don't know how this happened i had my tubes tied last year in august when i had Abby. my doctor told me then that i couldn't have more babies cause there will be a 50/50 chance for me to survive. so now i have to do the hardest thing i think since my miscarriage in 2005, is i have to go have an abortion. and then i have to schedule for my tubes to be tied AGAIN!
so now i have to go to the docs today to get some test done i hope to god i don't have to have an ultra sound. Cause it didn't hit me with the miscarriage till i saw the ultra sound of the baby and it was 3 months.
what really pisses me off is my last period was on august 19th and i went to the docs on September 20th complaining of sornes of my stomach and of symptoms of being pregnant. and the doc was like no your not pregnant cause you had your tubes tied, and its just you body thinking it was when its not. i still insisted i wanted a prego test and he told me no.
and look it now im 2 months prego dumbass doctor. i fucken hate him cause this could have been done a month ago.
but i have finally quite crying for now cause that was all i was thinking about was how it was when i had lost the one in 2005. i just hope that i can stop making myself upset. it will be about a week before the procedure will be done, wish me luck.
Doing my part today
17 years ago
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ok so Tuesday i went to the docs and he said that it wouldn't be good for me to have my tubes done again cause of all my scare tissue. so i need to think of another form of birth control. so i went threw all that pain getting them tied for nothing.
and they had to do an ultra sound to see how far along i was to let the clinic know. and i was almost 8 weeks, and then he turn the monitor twords me and i couldn't make myself turn away. and he showed me the heart beat and i told him i didnt want to hear it and then i started crying.
its just hard getting ride of something that hasn't done anything wrong. it is suppose to be a wonderful experience finding out your pregnant but all i can do is cry.
now i have to goto some place and have them take it away. but this time i think i will have to be awake. i don't think i can handle this im not that strong of a person.
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